Taking the Bus: Part III

Well, I biked to the psychiatrist appointment, the rain held off.  But he thinks with me “losing time” it’s probably not safe to bike either.  

I guess I will have to face my fears and try the bus next time.   A little exposure therapy will help I hope.  


Taking the bus Part II

So I got everything figured out for how to get from my house to my psychiatrist appointment using the bus.  Catch bus, transfer at mall, get to psychiatrist…no problem.  

However, I’m still not ready.  Having to ask for a transfer, terrifying.  Do all busses pass through all stops at mall or will I be waiting at the wrong one and miss the bus I need, who needs that risk!

So I’ve decided to ride my bike despite the risk of thunderstorms, what’s a little rain and it’s only 5k each way lol. 

I’ve been afraid to ride my bike to places where I have to leave it unattended in case someone steals it, of course it’ll be locked up but who knows right? Someone could cut the lock.  I did manage to ride my bike to the gym yesterday and it was not stolen.  So I’m willing to risk it again.  Each time I do it the threat will feel lower. 

So today’s the day, hopefully the rain holds off until after I head out or I may end up taking a taxi 😂

Taking the bus 😳

So, I’ve been having periods of “losing time” either from dissociation or absence seizures. My EEG is scheduled for September.  So I am on a hiatus from driving.  Very frustrating as a busy mom of four.  

Thankfully, I have a licensed teenager and it’s summer so he has been kind enough to chauffeur me and the younger kids around.  😀.   

But now that he’s getting full time hours at his job I’m finding getting around more problematic.  Of course, our city has public transit – a fairly weak one but bussing nonetheless.  So now I’m tasked with learning to navigate our cities transit system to get me to my appointments.  

Of course, this is a much larger issue than it should be because of my depression which makes me lack the focus to put all the information together and my anxiety makes everything overwhelming and scary.  

I’ve got a psychiatrist appointment in a couple days I’ll report back on how it goes.  

Dull and Dreary

blog1I love fall, the changing colours, the leaves falling, fresh apples, pumpkin pie, fall fairs and the fresh, crisp air.  But along with all of these positive changes comes something more profound.  As I encounter less daylight and there are more dreary days, my mood falls. Sometimes I can maintain it at a medium level and other times I can’t control my fall into the abyss of dull and dreary which overcomes my being. Continue reading